stuck in a rut

I am kind of in a funk right now. Funny thing is, I should be the happiest ever right now. I mean I am getting married in three weeks!

But I am having issues. I'm going to call it the "grass is always greener" syndrome mixed with feeling trapped.

Maybe it's looking at pinterest.com where you see all these super creative people doing awesome DIY projects (I don't have much patience for a lot of those), or super cute outfits that you don't have, or super cool places that you have never been to. I want so badly to travel. I see my friends moving to really cool cities, and I have only lived in two cities, one state away from each other. But traveling would mean leaving my fiance, which would make me sad. Is it too much to ask of our companies to allow us to leave for a year, travel the globe, and come back and keep our same jobs?

I am also in a career rut. I'm not really sure what I would want to do, or if I even want to work for money. Stay at home mom is out of the question for at least four more years, and who knows if I would even want to do that once we have kids, if we have them.

I look at job descriptions and nothing sounds exciting to me. I just sort of think, "well I could do that, I have the experience for that," but nothing appeals to me. Right now I work at a great company with great people, so I am trying to be content with that. But sometimes, deep down in my heart, I wonder (in the words of Jennifer Nettles), "there's gotta be something more."

How do y'all feel? Have you ever been in a funk? Were you able to pull yourself out of a funk? How did you do it?


Sara Pyles said...

I've been there SEVERAL times Rach. It's hard sometimes when you feel like there is nothing on the other side of things and you have the same ole days. Just keep trucking and you'll be a wife before you know it and there will be lots of new and exciting adventures that come along with that. I love you and am praying for you!!! Keep me posted!

Kate said...

I totally know what you mean about Pinterest! I love that site, but at the same time I'm like, "All this is doing is showing me things I want but don't have..."

Rach said...

I totally know how you feel. I have been dealing with the same things for the past year or so. I always thought I didn't like my job because I was meant to be a stay at home mom, but now I am a SAHM and I don't love it as much as I had imagined. But you just have to take life 1 day at a time and find enjoyment in simple things every day. At least that's what I do. I have to remind myself that God has a plan and purpose for my life and I am in this place in my life for a reason. I just have to stop looking into the future and just live in the moment. Ya know?

Rachael L. Anderson said...

I totally agree! I do think about the future too much.